How The Darkest Days Turn Into The Brightest

Here I am twenty-nine years old and embarking on the journey of the unknown. Five months ago I returned from my first ten 10 sit and a few days following put my engagement on pause and slowly watched my dreams shatter. I wasn’t sure why I was being called to a new state, or even why I had to leave the home, comfort, and love I felt so close to. Yet, it turned out to be one of the best decisions I ever made.

There are many times in life, a calling arrives. Whether the calling is through a person, feeling, or inner knowing, we must take it. This is often the call we have prepared our entire lives for, the only thing that holds us back is the distractions and attachments to our cozy daily life.

As I transitioned, I realized creating a life with fewer attachments does not mean less love or less stuff. No, actually it means enjoying all these things even more because there is no fear attached to the attachment. The fear of losing someone, something, or anything that is dear to us, is often a thought caused by some trauma or drama in the past. As we transition into the present on our healing journey and become fully embodied as a spiritual vessel, we begin to recognize how we are choosing to consciously move through death and rebirth multiple times through the journey.

This is often the hardest part because it requires our ego to be stripped, and our tears to finally flow as we lay on the floor, reminiscing, craving and seeking for the comfort we once felt.

Except for these things, people and places can not bring us the comfort we once felt, so the only way out... is in.

Our ego will do anything it can to EDGE GOD OUT, in this process of Letting go…

This is often the dark night of the soul or the low points we may feel in life. Except they are not low at all, actually they are some of the highest points we can ever reach because we are actively choosing to let go and feel a very real human emotion, grief.

Grief is almost indescribable in words, it is an experience that feels like an organ or body part is being ripped off your existence and thrown to the fire. As If you will never have an arm again, or a leg, yet that's not the truth, in the moment it may feel like it is the truth. We can begin to heal this missing part of our identity by slowly with grace and compassion adapting to a new lifestyle. We learn to move differently, utilizing other parts of our bodies and mind to help us continue the journey of life.

So why does it feel so dark?

It feels dark because of our resistance to feeling what is actually taking place in our reality. Grief will leave you tired, frustrated, compromised, numb, in limbo, and angry, and yet when felt fully it will also leave you speechless, in love, grateful, and in awe of our human existence.

As living beings, this is how we know we are alive, every time we die to ourselves, old attachments and cravings, we remember the truth of our life, that is, it is temporary. Which also means take nothing for granted, nothing. Not in this moment or the next, stop what you're doing, and look around....

What can you appreciate in this moment?

Can you stay with that feeling of gratitude a minute longer?

Possibly feeling the state of your body exactly as it is at this moment?

The light begins to grow when we wake up to the life that is right here. When the dark night of the soul comes, we know it is just another opportunity to be present, feel what arises, and thank the visitor for reminding us of our existence. Every emotion is developing your awareness to wake up, change, and embrace the dawn of a new day.

Make one choice today that empowers, inspires, and ignites your passion for life. That light is the very thing that helps us rest during the night, trusting in the very nature that reveals our true calling to be with what is.